You Can Run, but You Can't Hide

“You often meet your destiny on the road you took to avoid it”

I’m not sure who pinned those words; however they hold true for me. For years I took the ‘easy’ road. Only to find that it led me right back to the ‘hard’ road. What I mean by ‘easy road’ is the path of denial and what I mean by ‘hard road’ is the path of acceptance and responsibility.

For years, I thought if I changed my job, my house, my car, even my geographical location, things would be different. The problem with this was although those things changed, I didn’t. I remained the same. I continued to take the easy road instead of standing still, taking notice of my life, and listening to the God within. It was not until there was nothing else for me to do that I finally looked within. I had changed jobs, houses, cars, and had even moved to a different state. And you guessed it, nothing seemed to change. I asked myself over and over again, now what? Then my answer came…the problem did not lie in where I worked, where I slept, what I drove, or even where I lived. The problem was in me. The necessary changing needed to happen within me.

So, I’ve begun to take the ‘hard road’. I’ve stopped denying my truths. I’ve taken off the blinders and looked myself straight in the eyes. I’m willing to face those issues that I need to deal with. Issues of self worth, procrastination, neediness (needing to be needed), they all came up with one glance in the mirror. To some this may sound as if I’m tearing myself down. Please know that in this process, you may have to tear down a few walls in order to erect a magnificent structure.

I’ve also learned that no matter how far and how fast I run, I can’t outrun myself. I lie down with me every single night. I wake with myself every single day. I go along my day with me. There is no getting away from me. There is no amount of liquor, or drugs, or sex, or food or whatever the addiction that can keep me away from me. And if I do not like being in the presence of me, then there are somethings I might want to at least consider improving. I’m not going to say/write that this will be easy; however, I can say self discovery, self improvement, self empowerment is soooooo worth it.

Stop running, stand still and discover who you are. Find your -licious.

J-licious